 so I don't have to 'go outside my comfort zone' to push for what I want.    I am introverted and shy and I don't enjoy conflict and I lie awake dreading the conversation sometimes, but my stubbornness and impatience, desire to get my way, or anger at them for being inflexible outweighs my shyness and dislike of conflict.   Since I'm not great at being diplomatic, I ask my very polite diplomatic husband for the nicest and least annoying words to use when asking for something (I'm lucky to have him on hand).  Do you have a more assertive spouse who could advocate for you with your doctor?
  so I don't have to 'go outside my comfort zone' to push for what I want.    I am introverted and shy and I don't enjoy conflict and I lie awake dreading the conversation sometimes, but my stubbornness and impatience, desire to get my way, or anger at them for being inflexible outweighs my shyness and dislike of conflict.   Since I'm not great at being diplomatic, I ask my very polite diplomatic husband for the nicest and least annoying words to use when asking for something (I'm lucky to have him on hand).  Do you have a more assertive spouse who could advocate for you with your doctor? I'm a strong advocate for my elderly dad and go to all his doctor appointments (e.g. I recently insisted on a 'minimally invasive back surgery technique' for my dad when they wanted to do open back surgery, and it is a lot easier when you are being an advocate for a loved one rather than yourself. I was the one that insisted on getting a sleep study for myself when initially my doc resisted because I was female and skinny with a thin neck (I didn't at all fit the STOP-BANG triage criteria).
Another example of me not being passive is that today I read this article about Alzheimer's https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/full/1 ... 0520925930, and now I'm advocating for my father-in-law to try this because he is quickly fading and unable to do things like dial a phone. But other family members say passive things like 'Well if it is a good idea his doctor would have told us'. They think of doctors as always the best experts and up-to-date on all the new treatments, and I don't. Sigh.
But you will probably be stuck with whatever CPAP machine you get for FIVE YEARS. That is a very long time if in a couple months you end up wishing you got an auto machine. Maybe keep that in mind when writing the portal comments, it could help with the motivation.
 
                 
                         
                         
                         
                         
                         
                         
                         
			 
	

 If it hadn't lost its will to stop pumping air (and the spare not falling on the floor), I'd still have my Cadillac machine. Oh well, for now the brick is doing the job in keeping me alive at night, that's all that is important until I message the doctor the day before November.
  If it hadn't lost its will to stop pumping air (and the spare not falling on the floor), I'd still have my Cadillac machine. Oh well, for now the brick is doing the job in keeping me alive at night, that's all that is important until I message the doctor the day before November.  



