and:johnnyd wrote:The dmv got involved after I nodded off for a few seconds while driving on an interstate, and crashed a van. I had been working very hard for a while with out resting and did not have the endurance I needed.
I say this as someone who has had an extremely difficult time adjusting to the mask and for the first 4 months or so felt SIGNIFICANTLY worse than before starting CPAP and who NEVER had any problems with "driving while sleepy" until AFTER I started using the CPAP:johnnyd wrote:I almost killed myself while using the cpap. I burned a hole in my arm while working due to drowsyness. Does that sound safe? This sounds like one of those the cure is worse than the disease (at least to me)LSAT wrote:Keep working on the CPAP...it takes time and a POSITIVE ATTITUDE. Next time you might kill someone (or yourself).
1) I understand how and why you feel as though the cure (CPAP) is worse than the disease. But you have NOW had a MAJOR accident that the DMV and your car insurance company will say is due to your UNTREATED sleep apnea. Hence the requirement that you obtain appropriate treatment: What documentation is the DMV wanting? A doctor's signature that you are being effectively treated for your OSA? In that case, you are asking for ways to convince your doctor that there's an effective way to treat your OSA that does not require CPAP. And that requires both you and your doctor to know exactly what the OSA diagnosis was: What was the AHI? What were the desats? How badly fractured was the sleep? So you have to start dealing with the DMV requirement by digging up those old medical records OR requesting your current PCP to refer you for a new set of sleep studies. Personally, I'd just request a new sleep study myself and start over with CURRENT information about how bad the apnea is NOW. And be aware: Until YOU know whether your apnea is mild, moderate, or severe, you have NO WAY of knowing what kind of treatment will satisfy the DMV. And you and your doc will have NO IDEA whether there are *any* treatments other than xPAP (and tracheotomy) that are medically accepted as effective for the severity of your particular apnea. And if your apnea is moderate-to-severe and the doc says "CPAP is the only effective therapy other than a tracheotomy", the DMV will insist on CPAP or the trach.
2) It sounds as though the last time around you got NO support from your sleep doctor in making the CPAP work. I honestly believe that most sleep docs make this assumption that MOST OSA patients will (magically) be able to adapt to CPAP within a few weeks if only they use the machine every single night. And when you don't, they don't seem to be able to handle it. And in my own case, I've occasionally felt as if I (as the patient) have been "blamed" for not adjusting even though I've been compliant. I've been fortunate to find a quality PA (who works for a crass, shallow doc) who has at least listened (most of the time) to my tales of how badly my daytime functioning has deteriorated on xPAP and has consistently come up with things for me to try. Without her help and the help from the people on this forum, I would not still be using xPAP---it has simply been way too disrupting to my daily life and there has been way too little (immediate) benefit. Some five or six months into xPAP, I have noticed that I don't wake up with as much joint pain as I used to, but that's hardly the major "I have my life back" response that many here have. So since you have one disastrous attempt attempt at adjusting to CPAP under your belt, it will be CRITICAL for you to build as strong of a support system as you possibly can before you start on CPAP again.
3) IF (more likely WHEN) you have to start CPAP again to satisfy the DMV, be very proactive in insisting that the sleep doctor (or his PAs or nurse practitioners) be very involved in helping you solve the daytime drowsiness that STARTS when you go back on CPAP. Don't simply allow them to tell you "It takes time:" In the initial meeting with the sleep doctor go through the whole story of exactly what happened when you seriously burned your arm at work due to drowsiness the last time you tried to use CPAP. As soon as daytime drowsiness becomes an issue, insist on meeting with the doctor---tell the receptionist that it is an emergency (because it is) and that you need the doctor to call you back. That you cannot risk injuring yourself or others on the job because of the daytime drowsiness that was NOT there before CPAP but now is there.
Do you live in NY or were you out-of-state? If you do live in NY, where? If we know the location (even broadly), there may be some people who can make decent recommendations of a better sleep doc than you saw the last time around. And depending on the location, you might also be able to find a decent in-person patient support group. Or not. But at least you'd know.johnnyd wrote:archangle: I am not a commecial driver, but have to travel alot for work. This happened in NY state.
I'd not describe it as weird per se. Anxiety issues, perhaps? An attempt at morbid humor, perhaps? Or simply you own way of (not) coping with the diagnosis and the necessity of doing the hard work that some of us have to go through to deal with this (awful) therapy that seems like a life sentence at times?P.S. is it weird that I would yell "GAS, GAS, GAS" before I strapped the mask on?