you sound like me, if I read that post and I didn't know it was you, I would think it is me, if you need further proof look for posts I've written recently before this one!!Snore_nomore wrote:
My random thoughts:
I'm hoping a cpap will be manageable, but wonder if I'm committed enough to look like Darth Vader for the rest of my life. Should I rent to see if I sleep better or feel any difference during the day, should I have surgery to remove my flapping palette, uvula and enormous tonsils, ............
1. Uvula , the love of my life, apple of my eye, morbid tormentor of my throat. I write poetry about how much I adore the ripping flapping noisy horrible prehistoric dangly thing that serves only to jar me into wakefulness, rob me of all sleep and make me the worse kind of person to know or worse still be in a relationship with - I have to say I hate that thing but I have no intention of getting rid of it. I've read up on getting rid of it, of course I have, I've asked questions - positive experiences of people who have....because I hate it and I want to know is it possible to rid myself of the foul rasping earthquake of misery in the back of my throat , but by all counts it sounds a bad move. Counterproductive, achieves the opposite of intended surgery. have read 20 testimonies of uvuvla no more gone bad, and hardly any of "wow, I'm so glad that foul thing is not there anymore" so it's one of those I expect to get support on it, but I find the opposite.
2. Tonsils - I did that one. Perhaps I shouldn't have as I'm now adjusting well to the machine and can't help but wonder, would this machine have helped me WITH tonsils. ? What's done is done, and what was done was incredibly painful, 4 weeks off work, fitful 2 hour sleeps propped up nearly vertical, morphine, the full deal. Privately I reconcile myself - this CPAP machine works better because I went through that, it has to do, because otherwise what kind of nutter would hospitalise himself for a month......I think that because I have to think that, because I did the surgery. However, the adjusted view would be - this surgery may make no difference to my CPAP experience, had I found CPAP first, or it may be making a difference. In In terms of risk however, I have to accept that I took a gamble I need not have taken. I am lucky I got through it. But it was extremely unpleasant. immediately after it my uvula was the size of a small cucumber, and I remember wondering why the doctor didn't get rid of it. Answer: because he's far less confident in the outcome of that operation.
3. CPAP
tried it before and after tonsil job. Before I failed abysmally. Now i'm winning - and yes I'll give this forum a shout here because people on here really helped me teach myself a little about the subject, and learning to sleep with it. I've never felt so alive for many a year and I'm absolutely amazed at the difference.
the darth vader look is not sexy. But neither is a partner who is constantly angry , frustrated, annoyed and exhausted. I feel sure over time my girlfriend will prefer Darth Vader to the angriest man in the western world!!
all I can say really - thought I'd say it though as reading the comments on the uvula , it's like I said that too
good luck on your journey
Andy






