Mr Bill wrote: Fits me to a T. Especially the insomnia. ...
Amen! Problems with insomnia - when I take time to analyze it - are as much due to a dread of sleep as it is due to anything else. If you constantly stop breathing as you fall asleep it WILL cause you to get edgy about going to sleep.
As I've noted before my issue appears to be due to my neurological issues. Sporadic OPCA impacts the brain stem, including the respiratory centers. And I do know that under stress I tend to develop ataxic breathing. It's not a common symptom for me, but I have experienced it. Hmmm... I might need to add that to my notes to ask my sleep doctor / neurologist during my next visit.
I've also realized that as my stress level increases, so do ALL of my symptoms, including the central sleep apnea. After a long day of work around the house, or being out with people (in noisy, busy environments), I am more likely to have problems with my central sleep apnea. Fortunately, I've learned to just rely on my machine. So, I can (mostly) ignore the gasping episodes as I fall asleep and allow the machine to ramp up the pressure.
But these breathing issues is why my MedicAlert file includes "Uses Ventilator At Night". And it's why my wrist band includes "sleep apnea" - among all my other problems. I want first responders to realize that breathing is NOT automatic for me. Just maintaining a clear airway is no guarantee with me.
Mr Bill wrote:... My mom was in the hospital last week starting off with an ER visit till 3 in the morning and then admittance. ...
So sorry to hear about your mother. It's good to hear she is doing better. Now, how about you catching up on that sleep ... 8^)
Mr Bill wrote:... The waking sleep transition seems to get worse for me when I am tired. The adrenaline of waking ... its just really hard to even consider sleeping, even thought that is what will fix much of the problem. If I can just get to sleep. ...
Wow! Unfortunately, that is exactly how I feel. Fortunately, I don't struggle with asthma or GERD. But I sure know what you mean about that adrenaline shot. I had really pushed myself for a couple days. And I felt it for the past two nights. I fight going to sleep. And I ended up ripping off my mask a couple times. I just about get to sleep and WHAM! I realize I have NOT been breathing and my heart is racing. I have to calm myself and force myself to put the mask back onto my face.
And I've had people have the gall to tell me that I'm overweight because I lack will power. They have NO idea. Choosing life, choosing a positive attitude, choosing to put on my mask are all due to sheer will power to do what I think is right and better - better for me and better for my family and friends.