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by CollegeGirl » Sat Nov 19, 2005 11:16 pm
lurker? What in the hell did I do to you? I think you've seriously misunderstood my postings. I think, as mike and lori have suggested, there's somethinge else going on that hasn't been pinpointed yet. That's why I'm experimenting with fixed pressures. I've had the same problem (extreme daytime sleepiness/grogginess/lack of short-term memory) for years, and after months of being on CPAP with no results, I've been trying to find the cause, and have been asking for advice here at every step of the way because I know so little.
I'm glad YOU are able to use a heated humidifier with your asthma. I wish I could - it might make nasal pillows doable for me and things more comfortable in general. However, the first night I used MY heated humidifier, I woke up in the middle of the night having an asthma attack and had to go to the hospital. I hadn't had an asthma attack in the 10 years before that, and there were no other environmental differences that could have brought it on. Just in case it was something else, I tried it again a week later for a SHORT, short time and felt things closing up again and immediately stopped using it. What else could it be? To me, it sort of makes sense, though - I grew up in Virginia where the summer nights are hot and humid - and it was always during those summer nights (in our unairconditioned house) that I would have asthma attacks. Heat + humidity = asthma attack for me. Things are different for you, and that's great, but that's no reason to call someone "suspicious." There are different kinds of asthma, and different triggers for asthma in different people. Just because someone else's asthma is different than yours is no reason to be rude. I suggest that, if you still don't believe me, you google "humidity and asthma." You'll find that humidity is a known trigger.
Since you seem to be "suspicious" of my story, I'll sum it up for you:
I started out CPAP therapy in March titrated at a pressure of 6 with a nasal mask (I don't know which kind - it was a Respironics, though. Probably one of the freebies the DME gets). I felt like I was smothering, but my GP here only raised my pressure to 8. I still felt suffocated and thought that maybe since I breathe through my mouth during the day, I needed to at night also, and asked for a full face mask. I've had this mask since April or May - I can't remember which. Probably May. I could never get the mask adjusted comfortably, and it was constantly leaking. In July, after reading "the other" board, and still thinking it was quite possible my titration was inaccurate (after all, during my titration study, I only slept for 30 minutes), I decided to ask my GP at home for an auto so I could get the software and SEE what pressures the auto used. Lo and behold, it stays around 11 or 12. For a few weeks I felt really, truly, good - then my mask started leaking even worse and waking me up, and I started feeling bad again. That was around the same time I went back to school (end of August/beginning of September). I called my sleep doc IMMEDIATELY upon returning to school, and he couldn't see me til November 18th. As of yet, I wasn't feeling bad enough for it to interfere with my classes. A few weeks later, though, it was - and I called trying to get my appointment moved up. They said they'd call if there were any cancellations, but there never were. Things got worse and worse, and finally (two weeks after my GP faxed something over saying I needed to be seen ASAP) I got to see him. He prescribed nasal pillows and sleeping on my back. I used Ayr gel with the nasal pillows, but twenty minutes into it had a bad nosebleed. So, YES, I rejected those as an option. Geez! Can you blame me?
There. Are we clear now? Do you understand WHY I've been trying so many different things? I'm desperate, damn it! I'm tired and exhausted and possibly about to fail my classes and I'm getting frustrated because nobody knows what's really going on. Meantime, my insurance has a yearly cap of $3000 (meaning they won't pay out more than that per year - it's crappy insurance that I get through the school). So far this year (my insurance goes by the school year) there's been the sleep doc appointment, a GP appointment and the one (soon, two) new masks. It's just a guess, but I'm guessing that puts me up around $1000. I'm concerned that if I get another sleep study, they won't pay for the auto when it's time for them to stop renting and buy it out because they will have exceeded the cap for the year. My family (thank GOD for them) already pay for my asthma/allergy meds while I'm in school because my insurance only pays $1000 per year total for prescriptions. With my meds, I've gone through that in about two and a half months. There's no way my family could help me out any more than that. So I'd be stuck if the insurance company wouldn't pay for the auto. That is, if the insurance company would even pay for the sleep study, since I just had one back in April for my titration.
And yes, there's the matter of timing with my studying abroad in Spain. My school is paying for me to study abroad in Spain for four months. I need to do this in order to become bilingual before I graduate, as, even after six years of Spanish between high school and college, I still speak it badly. They say nothing improves your speaking like actually going abroad - and that's what I need to do. I'm an English major, so I need something to make me more marketable once I graduate (I'm a fat chick, too, if you couldn't tell - so I already have enough problems finding jobs), and being bilingual is it. My future is at stake here. So would I put my treatment on hold for four months for a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to significantly improve my future? If it would risk my life, no. But I HAVE my CPAP, so it's not life-threatening anymore. If it's just dealing with a little daytime sleepiness, absolutely - you bet I'd wait four months in order to not lose this opportunity. But I'd rather not have to spend my time in Spain SLEEPING, so I want to get this taken care of before I leave.
And as far as "scripting what I wanted," my GP at home DID script what I wanted - she gave me an auto. THAT was what I wanted so that I could determine my correct pressure. What's wrong with that? I'm not blaming ANYONE for my problems, much less people on these boards. The people here are very knowledgeable - I keep in mind that no one here is a doctor, but can only offer advice based on their own experiences - but still, there's a wealth of knowledge to be had here. I would NEVER blame anyone here for anything - it's MY body and MY treatment and MY choice to take the advice or not to take it, so if anyone is to blame for anything, it would be me. However, I don't think ANYONE is to blame (including me) for my lack of success with my treatment. I'm doing the best I can to look at treatment from all angles and not giving up. After more than six months of problems, I'd say I'm stronger and more persistent than most for sticking with it and not giving up. If you'd like to call me "suspicious" for that, then go ahead.