There were days when I first started CPAP that I wanted to throw the whole thing out the window. That was 4 yaers and 6 months and 4 days ago. If I had done that I would probably not be here typing this. Either I would have died from a serious apnea episode. Or "She Who must be Obeyed" would have killed me by beating me to death with my machine for not using it!Dog Tired wrote:I too have been struggling - it's been a real roller coaster ride.
There have been some (many) days when I have been inclined to just give the whole thing away as being just too hard.
However, healthwise, it is just not an option for me.
I need to persist and find the optimum way to administer the treatment to give me a more consistent "feelgood".
I really hate the odd day of feeling great and the other days of feeling absolutely exhausted and worn out, struggling just to get thru each day. Also, not having the energy to spend time and play with my kids is demoralising.
I am worried that if I don't find a solution fast, the kids will have grown up without a "proper" father.
So whilst I feel like giving up sometimes, I know that I just never could.
Bottom line: stick with it, in the hope of better times ahead.
Hang in there you will servive.
