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by snorklemouse » Sun Apr 17, 2005 2:17 am
I complained of constant fatigue, I would list "sleep" as a hobby, I dreaded Monday mornings (and still do) when coworkers would ask what I had done last weekend. When I would reply, "slept," they would laugh nervously, and I immediately redirected the focus on their weekend. Now, I reply, "restful" -meaning, I still sleep (but not as much) and I'm sensitive to the reality that people don't want to know that your life consists primarly of commuting to and from work, working, and sleeping. I would ask every new doctor to investigate my constant fatigue, and dutifully, they would order the standard tests - which invariably revealed nothing. I've been suicidally depressed on and off since I was nine - and who knows - this might also be connected to osa. I reached the point where, at 450 mg of Effexor, 200-400 mg of Provigil, and 36 - 54 mg of Concerta (did I mention the ADD?) and still struggling with fatigue and low mood, that I knew I had to refer myself. I expected a diagnosis of dsps, or plm, everything BUT apnea. I knew that I grind my teeth, thrash about, etc. But, I only snored when I have a cold, and (to my knowledge) breathed just fine. Nevermind kicking my spouse, throwing the covers on the floor, drooling all over the pillow, and feeling like I was crawling my way out of the grave every morning to get to work...still struggling with the right combo of pressure, mask and whether or not to go further with the surgical "suggestions" I recently received. And here I thought, all this time, that I was REALLY SKILLED when it came to sleeping. I feel cheated. So, I would weigh in with - longer than 15 years - and - as an "average weight, young female," as my former* psychiatriast claimed, "my symptoms didn't merit a sleep study."
*I fired his a$$.