Newbie needs a little help & understanding...(long)

Bill, sorry for the delay posting - read your initial post and not the rest of the thread.

I had a terrible time my first 6 weeks of therapy. After two weeks, I literally STALKED my sleep doc, and demanded SOMETHING, because I was so sleep deprived and my moods were WACKED OUT. I felt like I was going to kill myself or someone else.

She gave me Provigil. I was suspiscious, but desperate, and she assured me it was safe. I discovered immediately that I could NOT take a whole one. 1/2 is all I can tolerate.

I've been on it since May, and I have to say, it's been a god-send to me. Lots of folks here will argue that drugs are not the answer, but unfortunately, I have to keep my job, in order to keep my insurance, and I was gonna lose my job without that drug.

I'm supposed to be weening off it, but I really don't want to. I've had so much more creative energy since going on it.

So, that's my two cents. Provigil has helped me. I was already on Lexapro. I've seen a marked lessening in my mood swings since going on this, though I still have bad days, I can generally pull myself out of the trough of despond.

Good luck!
Barbara