bpoe689,
Hang in there. I hope you'll consider some of the mask suggestions and give one a try, if you can. But remember, you have been on this a short time, two weeks, right? I suggest still trying to sleep with the mask as much as possible. (I struggle too, and I understand the need to just sleep without it sometimes).
Look, I promise to keep trying if you will, OK? It's hard. I'm writing this at about 2am after waking up from a struggle with my
bipap. And this is a frequent occurance. Several people have offered good suggestions which I haven't taken yet, but intend to after giving what I have a try. When I see the doctor next, I intend to force some of those good suggestions.
Point is, I might have given up by now if it weren't for this forum and the good people here and their advice and encouragement. Some of the stories here can be pretty scary. But still, I draw strength from this forum. Like you, I have noone around in my immediate vicinity who is supportive. And while I'm struggling still, sometimes I lose sight of one simple fact --- that I do feel better than I did four months ago right before I started treatment. For all my problems now, I never want to go back to how I felt then. So I hope there is some improvement for you, something to remind you that this is preferable to how you felt before.
Take care, and hang in there. I will if you will...!!!
Linda