Some people are really cranky here...

I think I've posted things I felt were out of character for who I want to be here maybe 2 or 3 times. I guess that's not too bad considering the many years I've been hanging out here. I don't want to be that person who thrives on getting people told. There's no pride or glory in that for me. I'd prefer my legacy to be my better moments in relation to mankind, not my worst. What people on here can't see is the reel that plays in my head of the times in life when I failed miserably at this and the regrets I've lived with. I can be just as cranky as the next person, but I am burdened by an awareness that I'll never know which words might be my last, or at least the last words another might hear from me. And that happens to matter to me. When I was but a young woman, my last words with someone I loved very much were hurtful. Never got to apologize or make things right. That's not a burden I wish to add to. I also make a conscious effort to not forget my dark times when I was emotionally fragile and desperately needed compassion and kindness. I'm no saint. But it's a big cruel world out there and I'm trying even harder in my latter years to not add to that.

kteague wrote:I think I've posted things I felt were out of character for who I want to be here maybe 2 or 3 times. I guess that's not too bad considering the many years I've been hanging out here. I don't want to be that person who thrives on getting people told. There's no pride or glory in that for me. I'd prefer my legacy to be my better moments in relation to mankind, not my worst. What people on here can't see is the reel that plays in my head of the times in life when I failed miserably at this and the regrets I've lived with. I can be just as cranky as the next person, but I am burdened by an awareness that I'll never know which words might be my last, or at least the last words another might hear from me. And that happens to matter to me. When I was but a young woman, my last words with someone I loved very much were hurtful. Never got to apologize or make things right. That's not a burden I wish to add to. I also make a conscious effort to not forget my dark times when I was emotionally fragile and desperately needed compassion and kindness. I'm no saint. But it's a big cruel world out there and I'm trying even harder in my latter years to not add to that.

I've always loved your posts here.
Time to slow that reel in your head, that cingulate gyrus in our brains can cause great uncomfort.

Uncle_Bob wrote:

kteague wrote:I think I've posted things I felt were out of character for who I want to be here maybe 2 or 3 times. I guess that's not too bad considering the many years I've been hanging out here. I don't want to be that person who thrives on getting people told. There's no pride or glory in that for me. I'd prefer my legacy to be my better moments in relation to mankind, not my worst. What people on here can't see is the reel that plays in my head of the times in life when I failed miserably at this and the regrets I've lived with. I can be just as cranky as the next person, but I am burdened by an awareness that I'll never know which words might be my last, or at least the last words another might hear from me. And that happens to matter to me. When I was but a young woman, my last words with someone I loved very much were hurtful. Never got to apologize or make things right. That's not a burden I wish to add to. I also make a conscious effort to not forget my dark times when I was emotionally fragile and desperately needed compassion and kindness. I'm no saint. But it's a big cruel world out there and I'm trying even harder in my latter years to not add to that.

I've always loved your posts here.
Time to slow that reel in your head, that cingulate gyrus in our brains can cause great uncomfort.

+1

kteague wrote:I think I've posted things I felt were out of character for who I want to be here maybe 2 or 3 times. I guess that's not too bad considering the many years I've been hanging out here. I don't want to be that person who thrives on getting people told. There's no pride or glory in that for me. I'd prefer my legacy to be my better moments in relation to mankind, not my worst. What people on here can't see is the reel that plays in my head of the times in life when I failed miserably at this and the regrets I've lived with. I can be just as cranky as the next person, but I am burdened by an awareness that I'll never know which words might be my last, or at least the last words another might hear from me. And that happens to matter to me. When I was but a young woman, my last words with someone I loved very much were hurtful. Never got to apologize or make things right. That's not a burden I wish to add to. I also make a conscious effort to not forget my dark times when I was emotionally fragile and desperately needed compassion and kindness. I'm no saint. But it's a big cruel world out there and I'm trying even harder in my latter years to not add to that.

That is simply a thing of beauty. Thanks

Uncle_Bob wrote:I've always loved your posts here. Time to slow that reel in your head, that cingulate gyrus in our brains can cause great uncomfort.

Thank you and to the others for your kind words. Now that I've googled "cingulate gyrus" I can reply. Yeah, for a long time I think I was stuck in perpetual penance, as if that could somehow assauge my remorse and outweigh my guilt. When I was 23 my husband was murdered, and our last conversation just hours before was hurtful to him. For years I went too far the other direction and would hardly say a harsh word even when merited. I think I've found a comfortable balance through the years, though I must admit that I'm getting a bit old and crochety and finding "kiss my arse" seems ever ready to escape my lips. Gonna fight the good fight though.

OMG... I realize it's been a long time, but hope it's not too late to say I'm so sorry... what an awful thing to happen to a young woman. And I'd at least have no trouble yelling KMA out loud where and whenever I felt like it! So amazing you've become so wise now rather than going another direction which no one would hold against you.

kteague - Thank you for that insight to this thread! I come to this forum every day but rarely post anymore. You have always been a positive person and a helpful contributor to this forum! I always appreciate your help!

Hawthorne wrote:kteague - Thank you for that insight to this thread! I come to this forum every day but rarely post anymore. You have always been a positive person and a helpful contributor to this forum! I always appreciate your help!

Agreed. There are some REALLY nice people here. Nice people that rarely (never??) get nasty with anybody.

tedtomato wrote:I haven't really seen a public forum where so many people are rude and cranky. Seems to be specific to this forum, and the moderators are doing nothing to stop it, which is a shame.

I am assuming that all those so called experts in CPAP therapy must have managed to adjust their therapy perfectly, are therefore sleeping well, and feel the need to share their experience and wisdom.

But wait, being so cranky is usually one of the symptoms of lack of sleep...

Are we getting advice from people who can't actually sleep???

I found telling cranky and obnoxious people that they are cranky and obnoxious don't get me very far. I seldom get thanked for pointing it out. I wish you well in your endeavours

TASmart wrote:

Oltremare wrote:All those people who complain about this forum, they don't know how precious this forum is!
In my country we have nothing like that. There is only one forum here and it is run by bad censors.
You can't talk about sleepyheads because they fill you with insults. You can't ask for anything about the therapy because they say it's forbidden to download data from the cpap.
In summary, my country forum is totally useless!
Stop complaining! Learn how to love the precious things you have and if you don't like it, ignore it!
You are lucky and complain ...
Maybe you don't know real intellectual poverty, one that takes away the freedom of man to choose and to know things !!!
Feel it, please, we talk about OSAS and CPAP.
Thanks for Existing!

Oltremare

While I can see some validity to the points made, this is a little like getting dog pop on your hand a saying you should lick it off and enjoy it because you love your dog. Jerks are jerks, and because this is a valuable resource does not make them any less jerky nor does it say we should ignore them.

What the trolls may not realize, is the help people are getting from decent, knowledgeable people is saving lives. What the nasty people are doing is the same as poking holes in a life raft filled with people who could drown to death. For some, the concept of poking holes in a life raft may be too hard for them to understand. The helpers on this website will be blessed!

Good one,Granny!