OSA = Obstructive Sleep Apnea. What we all have.
xPAP = Continuous/Automatic Positive Airway Pressure. CPAP or APAP, but we abbreviate it to xPAP... Just replace the x with C or A (or Bi or V!). It's a blanket term for any Positive Airway Pressure device. These are the machines used to treat OSA.
BTW, it is likely you will begin losing weight once you're on xPAP treatment. I know I've been losing quite a bit. I have a ton to go, but it's coming off!
I hate sleep apnea.
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| Machine: ResMed AirSense™ 10 AutoSet™ CPAP Machine with HumidAir™ Heated Humidifier |
| Mask: AirFit™ P10 Nasal Pillow CPAP Mask with Headgear |
| Additional Comments: Using built-in humidifier + auto-climate-control hose 8-13 CM Unreated AHI: 111 |
I don't know what your basic relationship is like-but try to read your post from the viewpoint of your wife and kids. If you had a good marriage to start-bet they feel just about the same as you. I hope your wife's seeming "lack of understanding" is really that and she just doesn't know what to do to keep you going. I know what it is like to have OSA-and I know what it is like to live with somone who is chronically tired, moody, and angry-and blames it on a physical condition. To be the one who is supposed to be supportive all the time is draining. It has to go both ways-then you recharge each other. Look at your life together-and honestly appraise what you are givng to each other (do not include income or debt). What are you giving your kids-don't plan on playing with them when you "feel better"-they will have made other connections by then.BTW it is the kids that fare the worts-though everyone seems to think they are doing fine. Kids adapt well-they look goodfor a long time-years-until we find out they have maladapted. (I'm retired-but work at the local elem school with "maladapted" kids.)
If your family doesn't see any energy for them you won't keep getting energy from them.I can understand reaching to the bottom of the barrel and finding nothing there. As daunting/overwhelming as it is-you have to still put something out to get something back-then it is time for some work/counseling if you want to get through this as a family. It will take some energy from somewhere else to keep everyone going. I don't know what that could be for your family but I hope you find it.
If your family doesn't see any energy for them you won't keep getting energy from them.I can understand reaching to the bottom of the barrel and finding nothing there. As daunting/overwhelming as it is-you have to still put something out to get something back-then it is time for some work/counseling if you want to get through this as a family. It will take some energy from somewhere else to keep everyone going. I don't know what that could be for your family but I hope you find it.
Faced with the choice between changing one's mind and proving that there is no need to do so, almost everyone gets busy on the proof.....Galbraith's Law