That sort of went away with the development of sleep apnea. I just had a constant feeling that something was not right, and wanting to sleep all the time, and no one really understood and told me to just go to the gym, or that we all get tired sometimes, or that it must be in my head, or had I tried a change in diet or getting my iron/thyroid/b12 levels checked and the answer of course was that I had tried all of those things for many, many years, but of course it rarely ever helped because I was suffocating in my sleep every night.
So while I love them, my friends and family don't really understand how much sleep apnea destroyed my life and I feel very much alone in this endeavor.
I got my auto -cpap December 2017, and after 3 days, I felt a new lease on life. My memory worked, my brain worked, I felt like a person. And then after that initial good week, I had some good and bad times but mostly my sleep was still all over the place, and I was blaming myself for things not working, because I always blame myself first, until I realized maybe I wasn't the problem, maybe the problem was with my apap or mask.
So last October, I went back to my ENT (who had initially suggested the UPPP surgery or a mouthpiece instead of xpap after my sleep study, so I should have known to run!) and said I still didn't feel very well and wondered if maybe he was willing to do a titration study or if I needed bipap. He said no, the auto-cpap should take care of everything, and no reason for bipap because "nearly no one I've ever treated has needed one"
I told him I was desperate to feel better, and I really felt my sleep was getting worse, and so his final suggestion was to watch a netflix documentary on some health fad, then suggested I try seeing a psychiatrist, as I seemed very anxious (of course I was, my machine wasn't reacting quickly enough to my events because the minimum pressure was 4).
These were the results of my first sleep study - basically my takeaway was AHI overall of 29.7 events per hour -
20 / hr in NREM
78 / hr in REM



