Mike,RafterRattler wrote: ........ Yes, I have read the bible. In fact, I was raised in a christian home...and half of my family are still bible thumping evangelical 'christians'. I wasted the first 30+ years of my life believing I was a sinner and in need of salvation. I spent most of my life feeling guilty about who I am and the fact that christianity never made any sense to me - so I never felt 'saved'. ......
Mike
You could sign my name to your statment and it would be true for me also. I began to question Christianity when I was in my teens and struggled with it for 40 years. I read volumes of "pro and anti" authors and could still not make sense of the Bible.
Then when I was in my fifties I developed a close relationship with some people with strong faith (not good people, just people with strong faith). Gradually my faith began to grow and my Bible reading took on a new life. It started to look different to me and quickly became a source of great joy and inspiration.
I have recently learned that God had the Bible written for his believers. Nonbelievers will not understand it. I thought for 40 years if I read enough and developed an understanding I would become a believer. I had it backwards: I needed to have faith first and then the understanding came.
BTW, for those of us who grew up in a strict church which leaves bad memories and lots of doubt, I found reading The Jesus I Never Knew by Philip Yancy, helped me understand the greatest gift better.