Pugsy wrote: ↑
Fri Sep 09, 2022 8:31 am
Because we don't sleep the same each night for any number of reasons and we don't always know why the big difference.
Then even when we do have a clue about the problem it isn't so easy to fix.
but sometimes what I do works and sometimes it doesn't and even knowing all this doesn't mean I can put a finger on a sure fire solution.
Thank you for your thoughtful reply. Makes all of this as clear as mud! LOL. JK of course.
It is so weird to me, before CPAP I went to bed and I slept. There was no dialing this, adjusting that. Although my sleep quality was crap, I slept (with the all too frequent non-breathing freak out) Now, I am hesitant to go to bed. I am very sleepy sitting on the couch watching tv with my wife, but bedtime comes and we go to bed and I am wide awake. I still don't usually have any trouble falling asleep but now I have this odd hesitancy and routine. Fill mine and my wifes water reservoirs, go to the bathroom, blow my nose, comb my beard, stick a nose hair trimmer up my schnoz to make sure I don't have the random tickle hairs in my mask, sit on the bed and wonder why I am not sleepy etc. etc. etc. DUH!
I am sure like most people, I consider myself to be a rational, clear thinking humanoid. In my daily life, I expect that when I do a specific action, I will get a certain and predictable reaction in return. Based on my current sleep and good/bad nights that this is not the case at all. I want so badly to be able to repeat my nightly habits and expect the same, repeatable sleep results in return.
Before therapy, I do understand that there were factors that impacted my sleep and I understand these things, but overall, the sleep was consistent and it was good- despite the damage that was happening to my body.
In my daily life, I know if I smash my finger between two bricks, it is going to hurt. Although not advisable, it is undeniably 100% repeatable. As I am starting to figure out and understand (thank you very much) CPAP therapy is not that way at all.
What is behind door #1 tonight will definitely, positively, absolutely, maybe... not be behind door #1 tomorrow night. Roll the dice. Take your chances. It is the wonderful whacky world of how will you sleep tonight roulette.
In what bizarro world does this make any sense?
I may be slow and impatient with all of this, the variables just don't make it any easier.