They Tell Me I Need This Machine

[Gasper62]

.................... even for our Palerider whom I seem most to have offended -

Welcome to the Bozo/Foe list, you've really earned it.

someone explain to dingbat, or wingdings or whatever he's styling himself as this hour, that the only time I see his crap is when someone unfortunately quotes it.... *shudder*
and, gee, thanks for that, Gasper

You're most welcome ! It's my pleasure.

[Gasper62]

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Well to bow out as Gracefully as possible.

Heartfelt THANKS to those of you who have offered me your Good Advice, Understanding
........................................................ & some strong measure of your Compassion -

Coming here, I was admittedly fogged & confused with weeks of Insomnia. Allowed only an odd few
hours rest here and there. I saw no Hope that I could ever adapt to CPAP and was very Angry about
........................................................ what was becoming a very Fast devolving situation -

Leaving here - I have had two nights sleep and I am able to tolerate my CPAP machine and have every
hope & chance at recovery - To those who gave me this GIFT - You must know that Iam Grateful
....................................................................................... It has been Saving GRACE

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I am however sorry & saddened that the many here that have take such strong Offence, as to Who I am,
and how I express myself , They take such an Irrational revulsion that they tell me I am deserving of
being defined as their FOE , their Enemy , I am to become - 'the despised pariah ' worthy only to be IGNORED -
Yet where he can be easily Sniped at from behind their button

Indeed they have found me to be SO Offensive to their sensibilities that they have found it appropriate
to subject me to their Abuse, Ridicule & Epithet - Whiner, Drama Queen, Grow a Couple, Pretentious
Girl in Jr High, and even likened to an Alcoholic Blob ! - One deeming himself the Palerider, even choosing to
extend his pointed Ridicule at me while Cowardly hiding behind his FOE button - I cannot help but
take these INSULTS very personally

I know that I am none of these things - I am a person Who for reasons of how I perceive my World, expresses
himself in an Unconventional manner - I do not swear at you - I do not Abuse you - When attacked,
I may parry the blow - What is it that I do to elicit such venomous Opprobrium ?- What is my Crime ?
I format my posts I use Caps, Italics, Underline etc etc

I give notice that I refuse to reciprocate, to their attacks and so quit this place - This is a place where
people seek and FIND help - I know, as I found it here myself -I will not sully this forum with what could
easily become an ongoing Feud & Troll War, full of rhetorical smart Ass rebuttal & counter blow

I tell you this - In most ways I am like anybody else - to a large extent a Person Who is defined by how he
expresses himself, and how he acts upon those expressions. -

I sincerely hope many of these people who thought that they had found an easy MARK come to realize
this FACT and come to comprehend just how it is that they have defined Themselves, by how they have
expressed themselves & acted when presented with something, or someone that does NOT meet with
the MYOPIC standard of their Ordinary -

I hope they come to appreciate human diversity rather than be threatened by it


I am Who I am -
I express myself in the way Ido because of Who & what I am - A Synesthete - I know that I am different -
& believe me & know how that places me into the context of " The Stanger in a Strange Land' and how that
opens me to the blows of the Hammer , spoken in the Japanese Proverb mentioned earlier


I am who I am - And I am glad of Who I am - And I will not allow myself to be demeaned by Irrational
INSULT & Ridicule - I will NOT submit to the measure of their Ruler

I will not stay where I am made to feel so Unwelcome that I am to be defined as FOE &I 'Despised Pariah'
due to that Iact that you feel that I overly Format my posts.


Don't worry - The door will not hit me as I EXIT - & I will shake the dust off my boots as I leave


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Gee. Don't go away mad. Just go away. Maybe going towards a flamboyant parade troupe, or, an emo thespian club, etc.

[palerider]

off my boots as I leave

Gee. Don't go away mad. Just go away. Maybe going towards a flamboyant parade troupe, or, an emo thespian club, etc.

one has to wonder how long it took mr attenionseeker to craft those hideous looking emails. *shudder*

[scottae316]

What gets me is that asking for standard fonts, size and color is accepted on most discussion boards. Now adding some flare on a rare occasion is certainly acceptable, but as a standard way of communicating online, it is frowned upon. I'm new here, yet I have been online using discussion boards since before the Internet was used by the general public. Hint, I used fido net, GEnie, Prodigy, CompuServe, and dial in bb's' to name a few. "ckeith" if you're still reading, I'm not attacking, I'm simply pointing out acceptable online community standards. If the members of this or any other forum ask for basic plain text, and you want their help, it is just common courtesy to comply. If your need to express yourself with different fonts, sizes, and colors is more important then you should probably find a place that will accept it and ask there.

[TinaRMurphy]

you DO realize that untreated sleep apnea is a major contributor to high blood pressure?

[palerider]

fido net,

Opus?

[cathyf]

Is anyone else worried that this guy might be having a bad reaction to the meds he's taking now on top of the insomnia? This might be a lot more serious than just obnoxiousness...

[kteague]

As one who has a form of synesthesia, I am curious about how yours manifests. Can you explain for me how the caps and fonts factor in to your synesthesia? Are you saying the way you type is the way you see (optically and with the mind's eye) the words? Serious question. Trying to gain an understanding.

[Julie]

Kathy... I get that you're serious, but I'm afraid you're so asking for trouble, inviting a whole made-up can of self serving drama - the 'stage' he's been dying to play on!

[Omne]

Hint, I used fido net, GEnie, Prodigy, CompuServe, and dial in bb's' to name a few.

I was on The Citadel. Earliest was T.I.E.S. timeshare system in 1974.

Those were the days, we used to dream of 300 baud modems. We had 110 acoustic couplers you had to dial and stuff the phone handset into them. Throwing the punch dots from the teletype paper tape used to be fun though. I'm not even going to get into stacking punch cards, mainly because it would bore everyone silly.

Anyway, it was a convention even back then to, if possible, not use all caps and try to make it readable.

[Sylvia54]

Is anyone else worried that this guy might be having a bad reaction to the meds he's taking now on top of the insomnia? This might be a lot more serious than just obnoxiousness...

I would say that the following formal definition applies;

"narcissism |ˈnärsəˌsizəm|
noun
excessive or erotic interest in oneself.
• Psychology extreme selfishness, with a grandiose view of one's own talents and a craving for admiration, as characterizing a personality type."

[seekingwellness2016]

I've been feeling frustration with misdiagnosis - not sure how to address this with the people who have been responsible for my "care" over many years. A major, major oversight that has had extreme consequences for my health and my life. I alternate between rationally trying to move forward with things as they are, and wanting to chew these "healthcare providers" out until there is at least a genuine apology for sloppy care. But I'm not sure the latter would ever really be acknowledged - the general response seems to be, "Oh." Very disillusioned.

[Julie]

There is always recourse for people not doing their jobs... going to their bosses, or a board that oversees the organization, or a lawyer who can put things in perspective and explain your options. Just 'taking' it but not doing anything not only doesn't help you, but doesn't help anyone following you.

[seekingwellness2016]

How reasonable might it be to pursue legal action? I am not the type of person who wants to get people in trouble or burn bridges, but I do believe this is extremely serious on many levels, and legal consequences could be important for establishing a point and/or precedent - which hopefully would help others.

[Julie]

Well, obviously knowing nothing at all about the situation I couldn't begin to guess, but if you can talk to someone objective about it, certainly... why not? Does the ? hospital/clinic/etc. have patient reps, ombudsmen, etc? What about the ? state medical board? I'd also talk to a lawyer, but first check carefully about what their background, specialty, etc. is... you don't want the wrong, if well intentioned, person representing your interests, or the first one to be willing to take your money.