I'm sleeping so much better

SisterShotgun · Post by **SisterShotgun** » Tue Nov 06, 2007 8:43 am

I have had my CPAP for a few months now and I am sleeping better and better and for the first few months I was able to stay awake all day long..Then the kidney stones hit and since then I have felt like crap, I just never really got better since I passed all the stones..Yesterday I found out why..

For the past few weeks I have been going to my doctor for blood tests, a glucose tolerance test. I was told yesterday at 0945 that I have Delayed Onset Type 1 Diabetes My fasting whole blood glucose was 200 and my C-Peptide levels are too low. The news hit me like a lead balloon, WTF I thought only kids were diagnosed with Juvenile Diabetes not adults especially at my age (41)

I go in Thursday to find out how much long-acting and short-acting insulin I am to inject every day.

I am not new to the world of diabetes, my 14 year old son has had type 1 for four years now, I am his caregiver, and here I am with the same damn thing!!! This would explain the weight loss and feeling like crap for over a month.

I have mixed emotions here, fear, anger, depression, intense sadness..My heart broke when my son was diagnosed, I was floored with my diagnosis..

Both my husband and my son are very supportive and when I started to cry like a baby last night my son told me to not be afraid, that he and I are now a team, and when a cure is found he and I will go get it together..

This is so hard!!

echo · Post by **echo** » Tue Nov 06, 2007 9:05 am

I am so sorry to hear that
But on the other hand you have found the cause of your problems.
You are lucky to have such a supportive family!!
You are in my thoughts, and I hope you can find the strength to jump this hurdle as well. Good luck!!! {{{ HUGS }}}

SisterShotgun · Post by **SisterShotgun** » Tue Nov 06, 2007 9:28 am

I am trying to find my inner strength, but right now I am wallowing in self-pity..Well not too badly, I just can't wrap my mind around this yet..This is scary stuff, go from healthy to chronically ill basically overnight..Blasted kidney stones pushed the pancreas in overdrive..I was told I could have gone for a few more years without this developing into full diabetes, and that an illness like this just speeds up the process..Before I was having episodes of hypoglycemia and that was being treated with food and diet and exercise.

I am pissed off as Hell right now!! Although I was warned..Still doesn't make it any easier..I was told I will go through all the emotions known to man before I am able to come to grips with all of this..I am in major fight or flight mode right now...Can I have a temper tantrum? LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL..I think I will go back to bed and strap my mask to my face for awhile..

echo · Post by **echo** » Tue Nov 06, 2007 9:35 am

I think you need one of these

embrace your emotions, even if it is ANGER. You have every right to feel whatever it is you are feeling. Let it OUT. Wallowing in self-pity isn't necessarily bad if it's just for a while. Part of letting go I guess! Don't be afraid of mourning the "old you".

Sorry I can't offer more than that, I can't imagine what you must be going through....

Eleena · Post by **Eleena** » Tue Nov 06, 2007 9:37 am

I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I have been diabetic since I was 7. I am now 35. Sticking a needle in myself twice a day is just daily routine now. I still have difficult days keeping my blood sugar under control but I'm grateful to be alive. Sounds like you've got good support and I'm sure your son will be able to help you. Good luck to you! If you have any questions or concerns, pm me. Missy

SisterShotgun · Post by **SisterShotgun** » Tue Nov 06, 2007 9:50 am

That punching bag looks good..That just gave me a great idea!! I will go to the gym and work out!! A good work out will help my emotions..

Missy, when I think of questions to ask I will PM you, right now I am drawing blank mentally

echo · Post by **echo** » Tue Nov 06, 2007 10:23 am

Wow, I just watched your youtube video on Kelton. It brought tears to my eyes. I really didn't know anything about Type 1 Diabetes. Thank you for that. And the video was really nicely done, with fabulous music.

Hope your work out helps... and good luck with the next steps!

SisterShotgun · Post by **SisterShotgun** » Tue Nov 06, 2007 10:29 am

[quote="echo"]Wow, I just watched your youtube video on Kelton. It brought tears to my eyes. I really didn't know anything about Type 1 Diabetes. Thank you for that. And the video was really nicely done, with fabulous music.

Hope your work out helps... and good luck with the next steps!

SisterShotgun · Post by **SisterShotgun** » Thu Nov 08, 2007 1:31 pm

UPDATE!!!

Early this week my doctor diagnosed me with Delayed Onset Type 1 Diabetes, yet she still wasn't happy with the diagnosis..My doctor is very test happy and I am glad she is..I had a CT scan it is shows that I have a non-cancerous tumor that is producing it's own insulin, which is confusing my pancreas..The tumor is called Insulinoma..Now next week I go in for another CT scan with dye to see if this damn thing can be removed...This is still very serious

I may develop full type 1 diabetes later but I will deal with that when the time comes...

ozij · Post by **ozij** » Thu Nov 08, 2007 1:41 pm

It must be a comfort to have such a good doctor when you've go all this to deal with.

I hope things turn out well - and do keep us updated.

O.

mckooi · Post by **mckooi** » Thu Nov 08, 2007 1:52 pm

Hi,

Take good care......btw, there is a new insulin on the test stage without having to inject and it works like a patch in OZ. That was just about a month ago in the news. Do a google search.....the advancement of biotech and medical world soon will give better treatment. God bless you and your son. I pray.

Mckooi

LavenderMist · Post by **LavenderMist** » Thu Nov 08, 2007 2:08 pm

I'm sorry to hear that you are going through all this. My thoughts are with you. I hope your doctor can get things stablized for you soon. (((SisterShotgun)))

echo · Post by **echo** » Thu Nov 08, 2007 7:25 pm

Wow, what an update. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you! Sounds like you're very lucky to have such a thorough doctor.

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