Fast-forward six months into my therapy and suddenly one night I wake-up at 1:45am and have a panic attack and anxiety fighting to breath through the mask. I take the mask off and calm down, try again and can't get started. I focus on controlling each breath- in and out, in and out, in and out. I'm unable to turn off my controlling each breath and my brain won't just 'take over'. I take the mask off and tell myself I'll try again in a few more minutes but end up falling asleep immediately and wake up my wife with my snoring, stumble downstairs to the couch and fall asleep (without CPAP). The next night I get ready for bed, put on the mask and immediately have a fearful thoughts of fighting to breath. I fight through it, breathing against the machine and manage to fall asleep but suddenly am awake again at 1:45am. I try again to put the mask back on, controlling every breath- breathe-breathe-breathe-breathe, give up and sleep on the couch. This routine has been happening for about 2 weeks now- I've reasonably worked through the anxiety of falling asleep with the mask but every single night I wake up somewhere between 12:30am and 2am and can't get restarted.
Over the past 2 weeks I've experimented with lowering my pressure back to the original recommendation of 8, increasing the humidity, and trying the auto pressure setting with the range of 8 to 14. I tried wearing the mask daytime and working at the computer for a few hours. Almost the whole time my brain wouldn't 'take over' and I was still controlling each breath.
Any advice? I'm thinking that I can fall asleep as I'm relatively calm even though I'm controlling each breath. But when I wake up after midnight I'm anxious of getting restarted and I'm much more awake. But why am I waking up anyways? I'm wondering if there's anything in my charts to indicate a problem with my setup or breathing that's happening every night between 12:30 and 2am.
I'm including a chart below with an example night of waking up shortly after midnight.
Thanks for everyone's thoughts and input.







