Folks,
That first sentence of the OPs post, "
I am fully concious and aware when I take it off, but I can't keep myself from doing this." is critically important here: His problem is convincing his CONSCIOUS mind that he needs to not take the mask off at 4:00 or 4:30. Although I have no evidence to support it, my pet theory is that the OP is going to bed around midnight and that he's consciously waking up to take the mask off once he's got his compliance hours done and then returning to sleep. He may not even be aware that he's fallen into the pattern of thinking, "Just get the four hours of compliance dealt with and then worry about the rest of the night." But if that's what's going through his conscious mind as he's trying to fall asleep, it's not a surprise that he wakes himself up so that his conscious mind can get on doing what it said it needed to do just before falling asleep. In other words, I think he's making the same mistake snuginarug admits to making:
snuginarug wrote:... part of it is pure will power. You must be determined to achieve complete compliance. As long as you are ok with partial compliance, you're going to have lots of trouble. I speak from bitter experience. As long as I thought Oh I'll wear it this long and then sleep without it, I progressed very slowly with much distress and struggle on top of not achieving the goal of complete compliance. It was really horrible.
And I think that things will improve for the OP only after he makes the same commitment snug did:
snuginarug wrote: Things improved a lot once I got my comfort taken care of and made the commitment to NEVER sleep without my mask. I sometimes take it off in my sleep, but the minute I wake up and find the mask off, I put it right back on. It's a matter of always getting right back up on the horse.
Keep putting that mask back on, and you'll achieve your goal of compliance.
This commitment to never
consciously fall asleep sans mask is the key to fixing the OP's problem of
consciously removing his mask every morning between 4:00 and 4:30.
Furthermore, a big part of
will power is doing the honest analysis of your own behavior and figuring out what you need in order to adjust the behavior in the way you want to. So I would say that the effort that goes into analyzing every aspect of comfort in order to address all those niggling, irritating, and horrible comfort issues is a MAJOR component of
will power being directly applied to the decision to use the CPAP every single night all night long.
And so the OP also needs to make a conscious commitment to doing the real work on fixing whatever comfort issues he currently has with the mask. That means he needs the will power to carefully and honestly analyze his physical reaction to the mask in order to identify the comfort issues that are leading to the his consciously taking the mask off. And I'm not sure he's really begun doing this work: He said,
kevster324 wrote:I am fully concious and aware when I take it off, but I can't keep myself from doing this. It usually occurs around 4:00-4:30 AM. I had nasal pillows until last month when I switch to a Quattro FX FFM. I thought that maybe switching masks would solve the problem, but no such luck.
So he's made one attempt to solve the problem that didn't work. And he's apparently done very little additional analysis of why he is
consciously taking off his mask each morning at 4:00am. Until kevster324 can tell himself and us:
- "I consciously take the mask off at 4:00 or 4:30 because of x, y, or z."
he will be grasping at straws that others provide him in hopes that one of them will be the magic bullet that will "solve" his problem. If he's very lucky one or more of those ideas may prove useful in fixing comfort problems, but as long as he is willing to consciously make the decision to fall asleep without the mask at 4:00 in the morning, he's likely to continue to wake up at that time and consciously take the mask off at that time and then return to sleep.