Mindy, Welcome to the forum. I totally relate to your above statement. I lived like that for over a year... finding just one more thing to do before going to bed. And then another. Folding cloths from laundry at 1AM. Not understanding what drove me!mindy60 wrote:Anybody else out there afraid to go to sleep? I stay up late not wanting to go to sleep, not realizing it might be because of sleep apnea.
With short-term memory fading and forced to leave notes to myself at work so I could remember what to do the next morning, I was terrified of being fired for making another huge mistake. I was out of control emotionally, mentally and physically. Thought I had early onset Alzheimers. Beginning to understand why some commit suicide. If I was fired who would hire a 59 year old woman with a 2 year collage degree that was over 30 years old? Could I go back to school and survive? I didn't think so! All because I had moderate OSA.
Do I love my machine? Not really.
But after three months of 100% compliance I got my life back! I could remember again, Multi-task again without losing track of different tasks. In comparison to my condition prior to April 2010, I feel great.
I had to make the machine work for me. The alternative was too frightening.
Mindy, there are many people here willing to give you ideas to try... you've already read a few. Remember... they've been there. Have already walked the same ground..... successfully! They won....and you can too!
Wishing you all the best!
Cindy