Catherine,
I am so sorry that you are still having major problems.
CatherineF wrote:
My main problems with inability to sleep my BiPAP are:
*feeling anxious when I have to breathe through the mask, My EPAP is set at 7, IPAP 13 (in auto VPAP mode it is 6-15, with a ps of 6), somehow I just can't adjust to it
As others have suggested, wearing the machine for an hour or more during the daytime may help you get over the anxiety you feel when you have the mask on your nose. Anxiety also affects the respiration rate. The masks are designed to provide us with the air we need, but they also assume that we'll be doing normal, night time breathing, which is more regular, a bit more shallow, and often slower than our regular daytime breathing. So when you've got the mask on, consciously focus on making your breathing slow and regular, but not overly deep.
*my machine seems to have too long time to reach full IPAP, it is doing it gradually
My understanding is the the amount of time it takes for the S9 VPAP to reach full IPAP pressure is controlled by a setting called the Rise Time. (See
this page at the ResMed site for more details.) My guess is that your Rise Time is set for too long of a time. If you are comfortable with getting into the clinical menu, then check those settings and let us know what they are. If you are uncomfortable with the idea of changing your settings, then call the doc or the dme back and ask them to work with you and shorten that Rise Time.
The length of time that the IPAP is maintained is controlled by a pair of settings called TI_min and TI_max. (See
this page at the Resmed site for more details.) It seems less likely that TI_min and TI_max are causing your problem with the sensation that the machine is too slow to increase the pressure to IPAP. But it may still be worth asking the doc or dme about these settings as well.
*when I use Swift FX mask I have to tape my mouth, otherwise leaks are impossible to bear (those are not even leaks, it is air BLOWING through my mouth), I think this is making me even more anxious and scared...
It's easy to understand why this would increase your overall anxiety and discomfort. Are the FFMs any better in this regard?
*I am so tired and sleepy when I lay with the mask on, that robysue's advice about getting up after 30m with the mask on seems impossible to me (but it is a good advice, I know it, based on CBT)
It's hard advice to follow, but lying in bed is just making you more anxious and less able to sleep. Force yourself to get up just long enough to go to the bathroom and get a drink of water. You don't need much time out of bed. And in the long run, you'll probably get to sleep
faster by getting out of bed for a few minutes.
And don't forget the rest of your sleep hygiene. What time do you need to get up by? Can you stomach the idea of getting up at that time seven days a week? What time is bedtime? Can you distinguish between feeling
sleepy and feeling
tired/exhausted? They are not the same thing. How much time do you spend
worrying when you find yourself awake in bed when you want to be asleep? What do you worry about? How often do you look at the clock when you are in bed and you can't get to sleep? How late is dinner? How much physical activity do you get each day? What do you do in the last 2 or 3 hours before going to bed? All those things and more can contribute to your insomnia problem.
*full face masks I own, they both leaks, quattro fx (size s) is in a good size for me, but it leaks, mirage quatrro (size xs) may be too small for me, but I can't afford to buy another one now, but with a sizing chart it seems ok, only with mouth totally closed... I've read everything about leak problems with those mask, but I just can't make it work. The only thing I didn't use are mask liners, but I amd from Europe and shipping is so expensive that I have to pass (I've tried to make my own from an old t-shirt, but I didn't work well in preventing leaks).
I wonder if some of the problem is that PS = 6 setting. With that setting, on every inhale, your pressure is going from a low to moderately lw pressure setting of 7-9cm (which should be rather "easy" to seal) to a moderately high pressure of 13-15cm (which can be much more problematic to seal). You might ask the doc if you could decrease that PS setting a bit and increase the EPAP setting. But this might trigger problems with aerophagia.