Apnea Poem

[cpax]

Just finished this. I was trying to capture the experience of apnea. Tell me what you think:

Apnea Poem

Another Day
I drag my ass out of bed
My head is pounding away
And my eyes feel like lead
Throat scratchy and raw
Cotton fills up my head
Tongue stuck in my maw
Feel just like walking dead

Head to pee yet again
Like I did through the night
Time to grab some caffeine
Only way I stay upright
Finally I’m on my way
This energy can’t last
It’s like this every day
All the way to my past

Wheeze my way up the stairs
Legs hurting like heck
I’m gasping for air
Blood pounding in my neck
At work I try not to show it
Try to stay interested enough
But before you know it
I’m already drifting off

My head jerks me awake
Hope nobody walking by
Heard the snoring I make
Or saw my closed eyes
More caffeine to my brain
Desperately fighting it off
That old energy drain
Another day written-off

And so we come to the end
Of yet another lost day
Time once again to descend
To drowning dreams, blocked airways
Is there any hope
I once again ask
Someone lowers a rope
Tied to a hose and a mask

[ameriken]

LOL, very raw, but very right on.

On another note, I'm happy to see that you've hung in there and are still plugging along despite your rough start.

Good job!

[cpax]

Mind if I share it on our Facebook wall?

please do, I shared it on mine.

[cpax]

I'm happy to see that you've hung in there and are still plugging along despite your rough start.

Thanks ameriken! It's was the encouragement I received from people like yourself on this wonderful forum that helped to me to carry on.

[happysleeper]

Awesome, cpax! Your poem captures the desperation and the exhaustion of sleep apnea sufferers.
I'm so grateful that I asked my doc for a sleep study. I have my health and my brain back now, after 2 years on CPAP.

[Perrybucsdad]

I love it!

[kteague]

I like your poem. I think that's what the kids call "keeping it real". For some of us the experience really was as dark and desolate as your words depict, and treatment really was our lifeline. Well said.

[mars]

Hi cpax

Thats how it was for me when drinking, and worse.

Just add in blackouts, peripheral neuritis, a few unknown bruises, a wife not speaking to you, and free floating anxiety like you wouldn't believe, and there I am - for many years

I guess that stopping having hangovers made me feel so much better that I did not notice how bad it still was for a long time.

That was brilliant cpax - well done mate

Mars

[Gaga58]

Love it!

[cpax]

Thanks everyone, glad you liked it.

[Starlette]

That's pretty much what we go through without our cpap machines. Well done!

[carbonman]

cpax, any person that knows the fatigue and pain of OSA,
can feel your words.

I look forward to hearing how the post cpax feels.

I'll see you on the road.