As one of the people that Muffy took an interest in and I didn't show my gratitude the right way, I want to reiterate what SU is saying. I would hate to see Muffy (and others) stop helping people. Even though Secret Agent Girl elected to delete every one of her posts from the forum, there is still a lot of excellent information in her thread that can benefit other people. Muffy's (and others) efforts have not been in vain.SleepingUgly wrote:Muffy, YOUR greatest strength is your willingness to spend extensive time helping people. You can't control how people are going to respond, so please don't let their responses affect your willingness to help someone else.
I frequently long to turn the clock back a year ago, knowing what I know now, and handle things differently. Unfortunately, I was too new and too naive to understand everything that was being thrown at me so fast and furious. I got overwhelmed and reacted.
I'm paying for it now with little input into the technical aspect of my situation. I sometimes post questions, hoping to get some input from someone "in the know" and once in a while get it. Most of the time, though, I'm on my own.
I tell myself that my situation is just too complex and people are afraid to give me much technical help, but I know that's not the only thing going on. I feel like I pissed off the experts, like Secret Agent Girl appears to have done. I wish she hadn't deleted all her posts, but having been there myself, I understand how it can happen.
I will always be grateful for the help and information I did receive early on. I feel abandoned, left to figure all this out on my own, relying solely on my medical team that frequently takes forever to address even the simplest thing.
I accept that it's my own fault (kind of like Secret Agent Girl) and if I'm on my own in all this, I'm getting what I deserve.
I'm made some friends here and they provide a lot of emotional support and encouragement. That gives me a reason to keep coming here, hopefully being able to give a small piece back to those that need help and/or encouragement.