pandatx wrote:
Last night that breathing sound was so distracting, and the hose bothered me (there's no place to put it without it dragging on the mask, the noise of the hose against my headboard, etc) and trying to get the mask in the right place, etc...so
Zen of the Mask-the rhythm
Zen-direct experiential realizations toward obtaining an awakening.
The practice to discover, through daily, or in this case, nightly,
experiences that will lead one to ultimate enlightment.
All things are brought to each of us, for a reason.
Why OSA???
In OSA therapy, the mask, is everything.
rhythm-a regularly recurrent quantitative change in a variable biological process
<a circadian rhythm>
the rhythm of expectations-
My confidence in cpap is confirmed, I no longer question, "is it working?"
I know that each night and the next morning, I will be better.
I feel the change on my bike. Pushing bigger gears up familiar hills.
Pushing my mileage, pushing my endurance, pushing my enjoyment,
confident that each nights rest will bring the blessed recovery.
I hear it in my music. My guitars are fun again. I remember the old songs,
I learn new songs and remember each of them, and improve on them, daily.
....ah, to remember, I can remember, slight details, again.
I don't question if it is going to happen, I expect it to happen.
the rhythm of breathing-I go to sleep, listening to and feeling,
the rhythm of Grace, my machine.
It is the rhythm of life. I welcome the sound, the sound of my breathing,
in sync, w/a machine, in sync w/my new life, flowing through a hose.
the rhythm of routine-I live in the rhythm of the routine of cpap.
The care and feeding of Grace each evening.
Slipping into my Papcap and mask, plug in my hose, hit the blue light,
feel the rush of 12.5cm......
The morning routine of mask cleaning, data recover and analysis.
the rhythm of life-In response to my first Zen of the Mask chautauqua,
someone suggested that I "become the mask."
Good suggestion. I have become one w/the mask.
Sometimes I wake and don't feel or realize I'm wearing the mask or
breathing through it. I don't think I could sleep now without the mask.
I had a dream, where the actions in the dream were coming through the
hose and out of my mask. Sometimes when the stresses of the day
clog my brain and I can't seem to let go of all that "noise", I let myself
go into my mask to see all the things, the mask,
is going to bring me the next day....the next day of my new life.
Zen of the Mask
Yin/Yang of life-
MY choice to embrace or reject, the mask, and in so doing,
chose quality of life.
I have chosen quality of life.