CatherineF,
I bid you a sad welcome into the CPAP&Insomnia club as its honorary president. You can click on my
Taming the CPAP Induced Insomnia Monster essay for a long list of tips and suggestions that I've learned about while fighting my own insomnia monster.
CatherineF wrote:I have major problem with sleeping with CPAP. I can't fall asleep no matter what. I've tried trazodone, mirtazapine, didn't help. After Ambien I slept for 4 hours, but I can't take it due to my GERD and previous addiction. I am still trying CBT but I am so sleep depreived that I am not able to lay down with my mask for 2-4 hours with no sleep at all.
Can you please describe what specific things you are trying as part of the CBT. It will help me make some reasonable suggestions on what you might be able to try IF I know what you are already doing CBT-wise. As a start, I would say that you should NEVER be lying in bed for 2--4 hours
without sleeping. Night after night of lying in bed that long with the mask on and NOT sleeping is very likely FEEDING the insomnia a very rich and fattening diet. A major piece of CBT for bedtime insomnia is to make yourself get out of bed (repeatedly if necessary) when you've been in bed for 20 or 30 minutes and have NOT been able to fall asleep.
I am taking the mask off and then fall asleep and here my experiments with CBT ends :/
Please remember this:
Every time you allow yourself to CONSCIOUSLY make the decision to take the mask off and get to sleep you are UNDERMINING all the hard work you are trying to do with the CBT. Because
every time you choose this behavior you are allowing your conscious mind, your unconscious mind, and your body to continue to believe that you don't really need to make CPAP work for you.
I've tried some herbs - no help. Now I am trying to lay down with CPAP during the day, it is quite comfortable, Swift FX mask is really cool. But still i can't fall asleep with it. I don't know why? Because of my nervous system overactivity? I am nervous and anxious, lately much more due to sleep deprivation. I really don't know what to do. I can't take benzodiazepines, it would cause more apnea episodes. All Z-drugs are not an answer for me (zolpidem, zopiclone etc).
I understand the "nervous system overactivity" since I'm highly sensitive myself and a whole bunch of CPAP stimuli used to really, really bug me (and some of them still do). But---IF you use the dang machine EVERY NIGHT, ALL NIGHT (or rather for the ENTIRE time you ARE SLEEPING), then the body DOES begin to acclimate to the new
new so to speak. But it takes time---as in months and months, not just a few weeks. And it does take NOT UNDERMINING the necessity to get used to the new
new by giving up for the night at 3:00 or 4:00 AM and taking the mask off in the wee hours of the AM just to get some sleep.
Please tell me I will get use to CPAP...
I can only tell you my own story: I started CPAP in late September 2010. And the insomnia and severe daytime dysfunctionality started to develop by my third night on CPAP. The daytime sleepiness and brain fog I endured from September 23 through the end of 2010 was far worse than I've ever experienced in my entire life. But since New Year's Day 2011, I've slowly, but surely been crawling out of that black hole. There have been multiple setbacks---mostly triggered by medication for my OTHER chronic condition---i.e. migraines.
And finally, after 10 months into doing xPAP therapy and now that both my migraines and migraine medication side effects have been under control since early June, I am finally beginning to feel as well as I did BEFORE starting CPAP on most days in terms of pain, mood, and energy levels, but not yet in terms of cognitive functioning. And on a few days each week,
I am genuinely feeling better than I did pre-CPAP in terms of daytime pain and overall mood and energy. On most nights I can sleep from 2:00 or 3:00 AM until about 8:00 or 9:00 AM with only 2 or 3 wakes, which are NOW usually short wakes. I'm averaging around 4 1/2 to 5 1/2 hours of sleep per night. I'm starting to wake up feeling "almost refreshed" on most days and "genuinely refreshed" maybe once or twice a week. So in that sense, my insomnia is now "under control." It still acts up on regular basis---once every week or two I have a horrible night of "can't stand the mask and can't sleep until it's pushing 5:00AM" based bedtime insomnia, but the frequency of these bedtime insomnia attacks has gone way, way down. And in the last couple of months, the daytime brain fog is finally start to lift. In short, I feel as though I am finally (after 10 long months) beginning to get my life back.
Has it been worth it? Well, intellectually I know that having the apnea under control is a good thing for my body's health. Getting rid of (most) of the daily hand and foot pain that I used to have has been a wonderful consequence of xPAP therapy. The fact that I'm beginning to wake up feeling somewhat refreshed on a pretty regular basis is positive---I used to wake up really refreshed EVERY morning even as recent as 5 or 6 years ago and it's nice to have that feeling coming back. (I wasn't waking up particularly refreshed the last 2 or 3 years before my sleep test was done.) Right now those are the only positive changes that xPAP has made and they've been so subtle in coming that without my journals I'm not sure I would have recognized them as consequences of xPAP. And I know that while I can currently handle my sleep from 3:00 to 9:00 schedule just fine as a college professor who's not teaching this summer, I am worried about how to transition back to a more normal bedtime/wake up time schedule since my efforts to do so are still highly problematic in the sense that they tend to cause the insomnia monster to wake up and become more active.