GumbyCT wrote:Must be my work here is not yet done...
GumbyCT
A few years ago, when I was deep in depression and
unknown to me at the time, OSA.....I was involved in
Cognitive Behavior Therapy, for the depression.
Long story short, in CBT, you attempt to replace old,
destructive thoughts and habits w/new, constructive
thoughts and habits. To support yourself, you choose
images or figures that you can call on when you are alone
and need that support. My support figure was Gumby....
but not the green, Gumby, but the black, militant Gumby,
played by Eddie Murphy on SNL. I call on that Gumby today.
When I was diagonsed w/OSA and started cpap, thankfully I
found cpaptalk.com. When I got my first machine, an Mseries Plus,
I got the software and thought I had it pretty much under control.
.....well, after many wonderful folks tried to help me get real data
from a machine that doesn't produce real data, I was frustrated
.....because I was sure I had a Pro model.
As I was requesting help from the forum, Mr. GumbyCT,
made a post that in no uncertain terms, suggested that I take a
close look at what model I really had, just to be sure what we were working with.
....WELL, I was pissed....how dare he suggest I didn't know what I was talking about.
When I went into my room and looked, long and hard at the
top of the system and actually looked...and saw PLUS....
it was the 2X4 upside my head.
For many minutes I just stared at that machine and it all
just washed over me.
I realized for the first time how serious this OSA is.
I realized how fried my brain was.
I realized that the fatigue of the past years OSA fatigue.
I realized that the depression was OSA depression.
......and I realized that this machine was to be my salvation.
Congratulations Mr. GumbyCT on your anniversary.
Yes, your work was not done here.
How could I have known that years before I knew anything about OSA or cpap,
I would choose a support figure, that would actually come to life and
point me in the direction of a new life. All things are connected.
Thanks! I will never forget.