Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
Zen-direct experiential realizations toward obtaining an awakening.
The practice to discover, through daily, or in this case, nightly,
experiences that will lead one to ultimate enlightment.
All things are brought to each of us, for a reason.
Why OSA???
In OSA therapy, the mask, is everything.
recovery
a regaining of something lost or stolen
rebirth
regeneration of something destroyed: the regeneration of something that has died or has been destroyed
Hard exercise does not build strength and endurance.
Hard exercise tears the muscle down.
Proper nutrition and rest build strength and endurance.
Silently, alone in the dark of the night, from deep in the abyss of my brain,it seeps out.
Quietly it flows throughout my body and I am recovered and
reborn.
HGH-human growth hormone. Secreted from the pituitary gland during REM sleep.
From the 5th morning, after 5 of the most horrific nights of my life,
I felt the first stirrings of the recovery/rebirth. I had just lived through the first
5 nights of cpap therapy.....and survived.
It wasn't much. Just a slight easing of the pain in my legs as I walked up the stairs at my work.
It was enough to convince me to keep trying.
8 days ago, ~2 miles from the summit of Vail pass, my rebirth was complete.
My mind, firmly in control. My body, begging to stop this madness.
Mind dictating to body, you're fine.
Today is our day.
Today we are reborn.
Today, through cpap, we are recovered.
In retrospect, the strongest ride of my life.
So, 1yr after starting cpap,
at the tender age of 58,
I am reborn.
What was stolen from me for years, has been found.
What was dying, has been rebuilt.
With every night of cpap, the horizon continues to stretch farther away,
the boundaries of my limits continue to expand.
Yin/Yang of life-
MY choice to embrace or reject, the mask, and in so doing,
chose quality of life.
I have chosen quality of life.
The practice to discover, through daily, or in this case, nightly,
experiences that will lead one to ultimate enlightment.
All things are brought to each of us, for a reason.
Why OSA???
In OSA therapy, the mask, is everything.
recovery
a regaining of something lost or stolen
rebirth
regeneration of something destroyed: the regeneration of something that has died or has been destroyed
Hard exercise does not build strength and endurance.
Hard exercise tears the muscle down.
Proper nutrition and rest build strength and endurance.
Silently, alone in the dark of the night, from deep in the abyss of my brain,it seeps out.
Quietly it flows throughout my body and I am recovered and
reborn.
HGH-human growth hormone. Secreted from the pituitary gland during REM sleep.
From the 5th morning, after 5 of the most horrific nights of my life,
I felt the first stirrings of the recovery/rebirth. I had just lived through the first
5 nights of cpap therapy.....and survived.
It wasn't much. Just a slight easing of the pain in my legs as I walked up the stairs at my work.
It was enough to convince me to keep trying.
8 days ago, ~2 miles from the summit of Vail pass, my rebirth was complete.
My mind, firmly in control. My body, begging to stop this madness.
Mind dictating to body, you're fine.
Today is our day.
Today we are reborn.
Today, through cpap, we are recovered.
In retrospect, the strongest ride of my life.
So, 1yr after starting cpap,
at the tender age of 58,
I am reborn.
What was stolen from me for years, has been found.
What was dying, has been rebuilt.
With every night of cpap, the horizon continues to stretch farther away,
the boundaries of my limits continue to expand.
Yin/Yang of life-
MY choice to embrace or reject, the mask, and in so doing,
chose quality of life.
I have chosen quality of life.
"If your therapy is improving your health but you're not doing anything
to see or feel those changes, you'll never know what you're capable of."
I said that.
to see or feel those changes, you'll never know what you're capable of."
I said that.
Re: Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
And have added to ours.carbonman wrote: . . . I have chosen quality of life.
Thank you, Carbonman.
Re: Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
lovely, strong, evocative, affirming...thank you for sharing your journey
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Humidifier: HumidAire H4i™ Heated Humidifier |
Additional Comments: Started Aug '07 CPAP Escape at 11 then 9, S9 APAP range 9.8-16, now 10-17 |
ResMed S9 range 9.8-17, RespCare Hybrid FFM
Never, never, never, never say never.
Never, never, never, never say never.
Re: Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
Carbonman, your beautiful words reaffirm the reason we're all here. Thank you. Dori
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Humidifier: HumidAire H4i™ Heated Humidifier |
Additional Comments: 14/8.4,PS=4, UMFF, 02@2L, |
"Do or Do Not-There Is No Try"-"Yoda"
"We are what we repeatedly do,so excellence
is not an act but a habit"-"Aristotle"
DEAR HUBBY BEGAN CPAP 9/2/08
"We are what we repeatedly do,so excellence
is not an act but a habit"-"Aristotle"
DEAR HUBBY BEGAN CPAP 9/2/08
Re: Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
Whoa, Carbonman! You are quite the spinner of prose! So well said! Thanks for sharing this with us all.
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Re: Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
Wow! Thank you!
Re: Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
Thank you Carbonman. That was well worth reading.
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Mask: EasyLife Nasal CPAP Mask with Headgear |
Additional Comments: Devon Medical PC68B Recording Pulse Oximeter, APC Back-UPS RS 1500 |
EPAP min=6, EPAP max=15, PS min=3, PS max=12, Max Pressure=30, Backup Rate=8 bpm, Flex=0, Rise Time=1,
90% EPAP=7.0, Avg PS=4.0, Avg bpm 18.3, Avg Min vent 9.2 Lpm, Avg CA/OA/H/AHI = 0.1/0.1/2.1/2.3 ... updated 02/17/12
90% EPAP=7.0, Avg PS=4.0, Avg bpm 18.3, Avg Min vent 9.2 Lpm, Avg CA/OA/H/AHI = 0.1/0.1/2.1/2.3 ... updated 02/17/12
Re: Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
That is super awesome--thanks for sharing! Love it!
Some of us can only come up with limericks....bad ones at that
Some of us can only come up with limericks....bad ones at that
~Mama is happy when she sleeps with Pap-py~
Re: Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
I write poetry, mostly about sad things. Your talent to write positive things in prose is really nice.
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Mask: EasyLife Nasal CPAP Mask with Headgear |
Additional Comments: Devon Medical PC68B Recording Pulse Oximeter, APC Back-UPS RS 1500 |
EPAP min=6, EPAP max=15, PS min=3, PS max=12, Max Pressure=30, Backup Rate=8 bpm, Flex=0, Rise Time=1,
90% EPAP=7.0, Avg PS=4.0, Avg bpm 18.3, Avg Min vent 9.2 Lpm, Avg CA/OA/H/AHI = 0.1/0.1/2.1/2.3 ... updated 02/17/12
90% EPAP=7.0, Avg PS=4.0, Avg bpm 18.3, Avg Min vent 9.2 Lpm, Avg CA/OA/H/AHI = 0.1/0.1/2.1/2.3 ... updated 02/17/12
Re: Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
I printed this off and I read it before bed. I also was thinking of it while battling a panic attic last night. It's powerful stuff.
I am who I am because of who we all are.
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Re: Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
Thank you for sharing your gift. You are a true wordsmith.
Re: Zen of the Mask Recovery/Rebirth
Cman, I'm so happy this is being read by those who are coming now. It inspired me then and makes me peaceful now.
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Mask: Mirage Quattro™ Full Face CPAP Mask with Headgear |
Humidifier: HumidAire H4i™ Heated Humidifier |
Additional Comments: 14/8.4,PS=4, UMFF, 02@2L, |
"Do or Do Not-There Is No Try"-"Yoda"
"We are what we repeatedly do,so excellence
is not an act but a habit"-"Aristotle"
DEAR HUBBY BEGAN CPAP 9/2/08
"We are what we repeatedly do,so excellence
is not an act but a habit"-"Aristotle"
DEAR HUBBY BEGAN CPAP 9/2/08