Apparently I am going to die.
I am 52 and I have been diagnosed with "severe" sleep apnea. I have had my CPAP machine for over a year. I have used it partially about 10 times.
I cannot sleep at all with it strapped to my face. I have claustrophobia, and about 1 minute or less after strapping this mask to my face I go into full blown panic. I can't get that thing off my face fast enough. I practically rip it off my face. I really mean it, I am in full hyperventilating panic.
I've tried everything from ambien to different anxiety medications to stop this. Some of it helps initially but I cannot stay in that mask for more than 30 minutes. Even with the ambien I am wide awake for most of the rest of the night.
Then, even worse. After the panic attack I can't get to sleep even without the mask on. So now, I am even afraid to try to get used to it for fear of lack of sleep.
Anyway, other than just forgetting about the whole damn thing is there another option? I am not obese but about 20 lbs over ideal weight, and my sleep doctor says my weight isn't the problem.
What other recourses do I have besides dying in the morning?