I guess I'll check in to this posting. Thanks for the writeup. I think it asks me to focus on how I've felt since being diagnosed in April. I was relieved to discover there really was an issue. I'm mild/moderate case of AHI ~60. The overwhelming thoughts I've had are that of now being old. I have a diagnosed condition. I'm 46, and generally feel younger than my age. But this grogginess, irritability, general sense of stress and occasional forgetfulness that has set in over the last decade had me wondering. And the prospect of sleeping like Darth Vader puts me in the mindset of being 50-ish. I can't count the number of times I've had talks with friends about feeling old, and there's sadness here.
I initially went to an ENT for snoring, who sent me to my first sleep test, then recommended all sorts of surgery. But it was against my philosophy, I don't like the cut and ask questions later approach. I think the fact that I dragged my feet for 6 months before going to a sleep specialist and getting the CPAP speaks to denial.
My girlfriend laughed the first time I wore the mask. I'm 3 weeks in with the CPAP, and now she's adjusted. That was my biggest concern frankly. But her sleep has improved in the meantime, and I understand that's normal too when a bed partner starts using a CPAP. I'm still sleeping inconsistently, occasionally frustratedly, but today I had 7.5 hrs on-device, and really feel good. So I'm cautiously optimistic for the future.
There's a lot more of life to live, and accepting the need for a good night sleep full of oxygen and solid steps into each stage of sleep are worth the sacrifice of what was once considered a normal way of sleeping. So now I'm a medical-device-supported being. Think of everything Darth accomplished after he went on medical support ;-P